i'm annoyed that i delegate work and no one responds. i'm not expected to do everything myself, in that case, there would be no need for a committee. i'm irritated that people in the power to help are not helping. everyone is quick to say "hi, how have you been? it's been so long since we've met!!" and when you ask for help, they're suddenly unavailable and terribly busy. i'm pissed at the lazy professor who takes me to be his secretary, and who gets credit for what i do. i should be protected intellectually too. in any case, an independent study module can't be all that independent because then there'd be no direction. as it was, i started with an ambiguous topic. to make things worse, i have a lazy supervisor who's just making me fill up professional level documents, for which i have inadequate knowledge. and then he appears all hardworking and gets to have dinner with jane goodall...all because he has some fancy PhD. big fat hairy deal. i can't sleep and that annoys me. i am unmotivated to study and that annoys me. though at least now (as opposed to last year), i feel bad if i miss a class. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
